2005-12-20. The Candlebox

Well I thought it would be like before. I thought that it would be so very obvious that all is well and there's no need to extend communications. Why can't I find someone like Steve but without the complete insanity...or maybe that's why Steve was so perfect. GOD. I feel like I've made the wrong decision over and over a thousand times and this is where I will be forever. This isn't right...and...he's not right for me. I don't want to change him...he shouldn't have to change. I don't want to be changed....but he thinks it's just part of the relationship. I never had to change before...so why should I now? Maybe this is just what it's like dating a child....It seems age makes a huge difference between boyfriend material and just dating material.

I am obviously looking for something he is not.